estrela #14

I understand your point of view letting me go
But I thought you had more faith
Everything I've done for you
You made the mistakes and now you throw this in my face
And I have worked so hard for you all of this time and you cast me aside
I understand your point of view

You couldn't pick a better time to give me the news
Why don't you kick me when I'm down?
I'd always believed in you
Defended your name but you have not been true
I gave you so much of my life I've compromised and you tell me goodbye
You couldn't pick a better time

And I can't seem to get my head around
All the things that I feel good about always seem to disappear
And every time I think I've got this all worked out
Something chews me up and spits me out
But there's nothing left to fear
I'm better alone my dear

I know I really should thank you for setting me free
It's really amazing the changes I'm starting to feel
It's not gonna be long till I'm fit and strong
Deliverance helped me heal still I wonder if you ever wish you still had me

Will I ever get my head around
All the things that I feel good about that always seem to disappear
When every time I think I've got this all worked out
Something chews me up and spits me out
But there's nothing left to fear

And every time I think I've got this figured out
Something screws me up and drags me down
But there's nothing left to fear
I'm better alone my dear

estrela # 13

I've spent my last nights
strung up and pulled tight.
Holding out, sleep and grow.
An answer comes without a please:
'Do what you want.'

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Hushed with a finger
Don't say you'll never when you might,
or just another time.
This poison comes instruction free.
Do what you want, but I'm drinking.

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss.
Rather live my life in regret then do this.
What happened to the love we both knew?
We both chased.
Hanging on a cigarette you need me,
you burn me you'll burn me.

Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh
Lie lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh

Wonder why I'm so caught of guard when we kiss
I'd rather live my life in regret than do this
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased
Hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you'll burn me
What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased
Hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you'll burn me.

What happened to the love we both knew, we both chased
Hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you'll burn me.

agradecimento especial ao Doutor por me ter dado a conhecer esta música

estrela # 12

hoje descobri uma coisa nova. é bom saber que estamos sempre a aprender... e que até de ressaca se aprende mais qualquer coisa sobre a vida... hoje aprendi que o meu coração é como uma criança, uma pequena criancinha que precisa de saber tudo, que faz sempre perguntas do tipo "mas porque fazes isso?" ou "mas o que é que isso quer dizer?" ou "mas o que é que tu estás a fazer, deixas-me confuso!..." ou ainda, e a mais comum "explica-me... explica-me (o que sentes)". e é então que tento mil e uma coisas e não consigo explicar-lhe nada. ou consigo explicar qualquer coisa, consigo dizer-lhe "eu sei o que fiz, fiz isto, isto e isto e parei aqui, ali e além." mas o mais importante não sei responder "e porquê que o fizeste? porque fizeste isso?"
Inconsciente? não, ou então não me lembrava agora das coisas... Loucura? e o que é a loucura? até que ponto é que a loucura comanda? Estupidez? não, se fosse por estupidez eu agora estava arrependida, e não estou. Sabor do momento, desejo.... sim, deixei-me levar pelo momento.

Falta de força? não, apenas não querer resistir.